I can't fully wrap my brain around this. It is a strange feeling to plan a wedding for so long, that when it is no longer in the distance, but right in front of your face, it doesn't seem real. It feels like a mirage. All of the sudden we have so much to do, and so little time to do it. All of this is hitting me while Daniel is away at training, which totally adds to the bizarre emotions and reactions I am having to the reality of the wedding being eleven days away. Daniel isn't around for me to lean on. He can't tell me opinions on decorations or help with them. He is concentrating on being a leader, and a responsible man. I am sure succulents and chalk boards do not exist in Daniel's brain at the moment, and I am glad they don't. All he has to do is show up on time, and bring a ring.
"Sometimes on the journey toward marriage (or anything else one may want badly), our sights veer off the purposeful path when we set our passion on décor rather than the declaration of oaths and promises. We lose focus on what it means to be a good woman to a man and good man to a woman, in union before God. By exchanging words that seal the covenant, there is a glory in the transition from selfishness to dedicated selflessness—a sacrifice that is too important to not strive after and protect." The wedding isn't meant to be about mason jars and flowers. The wedding is about making a promise to each other, for the rest of your lives, that you will put the other before yourself and take the effort to serve them. For better or worse. For richer or poorer. In sickness and in health. When times get hard, you work harder. Isn't this the whole purpose of relationships? Learning that you are different from one another, with different flaws, and loving them anyways. It is hard work, but it is rewarding. This love is deep and honest. It is gentle, passionate, forgiving, and dedicated.
It resembles Christ's love for us. It is focused on God's grace and power, the Creator of marriage and of love. This is the marriage I will strive for. Imperfect, but forgiven.
This journey is glorious, and I can't wait for it to begin in eleven days.
Quote from Tracy Le